The problem with these black holes of updatelessness is that it becomes hard to remember what the hell has happened since the last time I wrote. My relationship with Tina is amazingly still intact, though I still keep wondering to myself every now and then why she puts up with me, silly girl. We’ve had our ups and downs — a very big down just recently in fact — but I think it has only made me realize even more how much I love this beautiful and wonderful girl with the cutest hiccups ever. Also, I should hire a professional bowling coach so I don’t get my ass whopped the next time we play bowling together. And no, I won’t tell you my score, shut up!

I sent my XFX GeForce 8500GT in for a replacement, and I got a ATI Radeon HD 2600 XT in return. Initially I had the most annoying problem with the ATI card; every time I rebooted I’d get a blank screen and the monitor would turn itself off. Booting into safe-mode helped, apparently the drivers got messed up every time I’d shut down, so I’d have to go into safe-mode, uninstall drivers, reboot, install drivers, reboot again and voila. Then if I shut my computer off I’d have to repeat the same process again. A bit of a bitch to say the least. I have no idea how it got sorted out, but it just stopped happening eventually thank god.

In WoW-related news, my mage pwns (well excuse me, but it does!). I’m basically stuck with it upgrade wise, as the notable upgrades I can get at this point are all from Mount Hyjal and Black Temple content, which my guild has not yet progressed to, though we plan to start on MH this week. I’ve got my warrior up to level 65, where it has been stuck forever now as I really hate the slow leveling process in Outland. My rogue is currently 62, pretty much stuck with that as well. My other characters are still lingering around the 30 range, easily the most painful place ever. Not sure which character I’ll concentrate on next.

I really was hoping to write something a bit more interesting when I sat down to write this post, but this is all you get, sorry.

Well after going back and forth for a while things are looking up, and Tina is now officially my girlfriend, my first one ever at that! Wohoo?

So time for a little update I guess. Nothing out of the ordinary has happened (how unusual), but the last few weeks has been great nonetheless. Tina has stayed with me for quite a few weeks during this month (my last post about her apparently being a bit overly dramatized) and it has been wonderful to have her with me. Still playing WoW together, taking walks, watching series/movies and the usual things.

She’s currently staying at my place for an undefinite duration, unfortunately not a very positive reason behind it. Last monday she asked me if she could come over, it sounded like something was up, which was confirmed when she got here crying. Long story short, she hasn’t had the easiest life in the world and doesn’t have the best relationship with her parents, and this time they had a bit of a serious fight and she just couldn’t stand staying at home any longer. So yea, not sure how long she’ll stay here, but I don’t mind it one bit at least. I just wish I could do something, I feel a bit helpless in it all. I can’t really do much more than feel sorry for her for having to put up with everything and let her stay as long as she needs to. Apart from that, the last week with her has been rather nice, she seems to be dealing with it all in a pretty good way luckily.

After ordering a new power supply for my computer last month, I decided to also upgrade my computer a little bit in the process as I had a little money in the bank left over from my birthday/christmas. Considering that my computer is getting quite a few years old now, it was a nice little noticable upgrade, just by buying some current mid-level parts.

EPoX EP-9NPA+ 939 —-> MSI K9A2 CF-F Socket-AM2+
AMD Athlon 64 3200+ 2.0GHz —-> AMD Athlon 64 X2 5600+ 2.8GHz
TwinMOS PC3200 DDR-DIMM 1024MB —-> Crucial DDR2 BallistiX PC8500 2048MB
Leadtek 6600GT 128MB —-> XFX GeForce 8500GT 256MB

Of course I had to run into problems… ugh. Any 3D game would freeze the computer completely (no way to alt+tab/ctrl+alt+del/whatever out of the game) at seemingly random times. I did all the driver updates I could possibly think of to no avail. Even though it’s a silent card with no fan, it’s definitely not a heat issue either as it has been barely warm to the touch even after heavy gaming sessions. Another strange thing was that it refused to output 75hz on my CRT monitor. I took it out and replaced it with my old 6600gt card and it worked flawlessly, so I’m currently stuck using my old card. Gonna try replacing the XFX card and see if it was something with the card itself, or if it’s some weird compatability problem, hopefully I can replace it with another silent card in the same price-range from where I ordered it. Luckily, with the CPU and memory upgrade, my old graphics card does the job quite nicely in WoW, which is pretty much the only 3D game I play anyway.

Currently reading A Wild Sheep Chase by Haruki Murakami, lovely so far. Only the third book of his I’ve read, but I’m already in love with his stuff, can’t wait to read more of it.

No better way to start the week than a lovely feeling of rejected- and unwantedness. ‘Twas fun while it lasted I suppose, but me ever actually being happy for once and finding someone to enjoy life with for a while — it was too good to be true after all. Won’t bother with all the details, just the whole “I like you as a friend” thing (how unexpected), guess that sums it all up nicely. Now I probably sound awfully bitter, she’s a great girl and all that, and it’s not exactly her fault, it’s just rather frustrating that’s all. It’s gonna be hard to just be friends and act all happy-like, when all I can probably think about if we spent time together is how I’d like to rip her clothes off. Not really sure how that’s gonna work out too good.

I really do hate writing these feeling-sorry-for-yourself type of things, but I shall do so anyway, as the only thing I can keep thinking about is how it’ll probably be another 23 years until the next time I’ll get a chance to experience something like this again.

Well howdy there. There isn’t really much to update I’m afraid, that is not to say that I haven’t had a good time these last couple of weeks, because I certainly have. Tina has stayed over for days on end, on several occasions during the last few weeks, and it has been really great having her here. Watched movies and played lots of WoW together, as usual — and it has been fun.

Christmas was rather uneventful. We’ve usually had a couple people from the family over during Christmas eve, but now that my dad passed away it didn’t really seem the same, so it was just me and my mom and uncle together. Strange how as a kid I was looking forward to presents like crazy, but now it’s not quite as exciting (not that I mind getting them!), and now it’s more fun to figure out gifts to give to other people instead. I fulfilled the male stereotype (i.e. being boring and unimaginative) and got Tina some sexy underwear. My oh my, did she look tantalizingly good in that.

As for new years eve, I completely slept through it, go me!

Bought myself a nice Christmas present; The EC Archives: Tales From The Crypt Volume 1 + Volume 2, along with Vault Of Horror Volume 1. I remember reading “Iskalde Grøss” as a kid (it was the norwegian name for Tales From the Crypt more or less — though it was actually composed of various other E.C. Comics series as well. A sort of potpurri of horror comics if you will), and how incredibly awesome the drawing and writing was. I was pretty young at the time (wohoo for kind parents that never really set any limits) and they scared the shit out of me, but I still read them. Ah, good times. Can’t wait to get those in the mail and reminisce.

Hmm what more? Well I’d tell you all about my awesome WoW adventures now that I’ve reached lvl. 70 (current level cap), but this post is boring enough as it is, so I’ll refrain from that.

Happy new year etc.

Friday before last week’s one, Tina wanted to stay over at my place after a party she had been to, so I met up with her downtown. I had just gotten kinda sick and wasn’t in the best of shapes, but I managed anyway. A small price to pay for such a nice company anyway. I probably should have written something sooner, as I don’t really remember what we did that day, but I imagine it wasn’t far from the usual stuff. She left on Saturday, but asked to come back on Sunday, which I gladly said yes to. I started getting sicker and sicker however, so I don’t think I was much fun to be with. I think I mostly stayed in bed while she played WoW on my computer. She stayed over for two days, which was really nice, I love just being with her doing everyday type of stuff. I haven’t felt this sick in years, my immune system must be under maintenance or something. Right now most of the previous symptoms seems to have dissipated, the only thing left is this weird constant side stitch type of feeling. The only position I can sleep in is straight on my back, any other position and I feel a pain in my side, which also happens when I take a really deep breath. No idea what that’s about, oh well.

Gotten quite strong feelings for Tina, but it feels rather one-sided and useless at the moment, trying to stay hopeful.

Tuesday I went to visit Tina at her place, we went for a long walk together in the surrounding forest area, then to the local mall to buy some food before heading back to her place. Watched some TV/DVD, had some fun, then I got my mom to pick us up with her car so we didn’t have to take the bus/subway back to my place. She stayed over for two days, which was really lovely. Went for a couple of walks, shared candy, played WoW together and I got her to check out Death Note, which she seemed to love thankfully. We actually got around to watching 22 episodes all-together during her stay. Unfortunately I’ve managed to develop a fever of sorts, which I now believe to be the reason behind my awful tiredness after our last walk, where I just had to lie down and drift away for a while when we came home. I keep waking up during the night with terrible cold sweats, and I have a constant headache. These last days I haven’t had the energy to do a single thing. I don’t have any appetite either, so that’s probably making me even weaker. Hope it goes over quickly.

On Sunday I finished reading a book I just got a few days earlier, The Year of Living Biblically: One Man’s Humble Quest to Follow the Bible as Literally as Possible by A. J. Jacobs. I ordered this book as soon as I saw it was out, as I totally loved his last book (The Know-It-All: One Man’s Humble Quest to Become the Smartest Person in the World), along with the stuff he’s written for Esquire. All in all it was a funny read as suspected, but not quite as good as his last book in my opinion.

Monday was the time of my dad’s funeral, which went a lot better than I had imagined. With the worst time being over and having had a couple of tiresome weeks, it was nice to meet up with Tina again on Thursday. It felt so nice to see her and get a hug from her again after so long. We watched Ratatouille together, then headed out to a friend of mine’s place. I had been invited (so to speak) to a concert, so I asked if Tina wanted to come with me. We were going to see Jim White, someone I hadn’t really heard anything about/of before, but it had been so long since I’ve been to a concert so I figured I’d check it out. The Bone Thugs-N-Harmony concert I was going to before got cancelled, so I figured I’d spend the money from that ticket to cover Tina and me for Jim White instead. I had downloaded a couple of his albums to see what the hell it was, and it sounded quite alright, so I had some idea about what we were going to see.

Nothing particularly wrong with his music, but I think we both were slightly too tired/sleepy for the whole thing, so after an hour or so we went back to my place which is close by the concert venue, put on a movie (Spider-man I believe?) and cuddled in bed instead. We were sort of supposed to take it slow and get to know each other more without all the sexuality, but no such luck that day. As happy and content as I was with just spending time together with her, I must admit it was awfully nice to be able to touch her again in that way.

On Friday we took a little walk down to the city, both for the walk itself, along with some window shopping. On the way back home we stopped by the store and bought some candy to enjoy while cuddling together in bed in front of the TV. I got the lovely pleasure of having Tina sleeping over yet another day. I had really missed the warmth and comfort of her next to me in bed. We watched The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh. Borrowed my mom’s laptop and tried installing WoW on it again, and lo and behold, it worked. Finally we got to play WoW together next to each other, which was cozy. Went to bed later on and put on some Donald Duck to fall asleep to.

On Saturday morning (A.K.A. afternoon) we did basically the same before Tina had to leave. These last few days helped me get some much needed joy back in my life, I really cherish all the time I get to spend with her. On Thursday when we first met, she gave me this incredible painting she had done for me, which left me quite speechless, it was so touching. Easily the best gift I’ve ever received (sorry mom and dad, all the G.I. Joes and Transformers toys you got me were all very nice, but…).

My dad was diagnosed with terminal cancer some time last year, and it was uncertain how long he’d have to live, it could have been weeks, months, whatever. He seemed pretty good for quite a few months, but this summer he started to slowly deteriorate and getting weaker and weaker. The last few weeks it got even more serious, and it became apparent that he wouldn’t have much time left now. Even so, it didn’t seem as imminent as it turned out to be. On Monday morning my parents went to the hospital because of some trouble, but I still didn’t expect to get a phone call from my mom only a few hours later that I should come down and that he was indeed on his way to die. By the time I got there he wasn’t conscious, and he was just lying there with an empty look in his eyes while you could see his chest rise up and down with his breath, almost like his body was just doing it automatically trying to keep on going for a bit longer. It became quite emotional being there and seeing him like that, knowing he could die at any moment. I’ve never cried as much as I did through-out that day. Spent quite a few hours at the hospital with the closest family members visiting as well. Eventually I went home for a bit to try and get some sleep as I had been up well over 24 hours by that time. I took a shower and went to sleep, only to be awakened an hour later without really getting any rest at all, with my uncle telling me that I should really come down again by now. Before I had gotten back he was already dead. I don’t really know what more to write about it all, everything still seems rather strange. Worst day in my life to put it short.

Been a strange few weeks, I’ve had the best day of my life, along with my worst. Guess it’s like they say, take the bad with the good. Only now it seems that the good part has a possibility of becoming shattered as well. My hopes for something more happening with Tina took a rather severe blow yesterday, and I’m not sure what will happen next. It’s hard to try and stay positive about everything right now, but I guess I have to.