Monday was the time of my dad’s funeral, which went a lot better than I had imagined. With the worst time being over and having had a couple of tiresome weeks, it was nice to meet up with Tina again on Thursday. It felt so nice to see her and get a hug from her again after so long. We watched Ratatouille together, then headed out to a friend of mine’s place. I had been invited (so to speak) to a concert, so I asked if Tina wanted to come with me. We were going to see Jim White, someone I hadn’t really heard anything about/of before, but it had been so long since I’ve been to a concert so I figured I’d check it out. The Bone Thugs-N-Harmony concert I was going to before got cancelled, so I figured I’d spend the money from that ticket to cover Tina and me for Jim White instead. I had downloaded a couple of his albums to see what the hell it was, and it sounded quite alright, so I had some idea about what we were going to see.

Nothing particularly wrong with his music, but I think we both were slightly too tired/sleepy for the whole thing, so after an hour or so we went back to my place which is close by the concert venue, put on a movie (Spider-man I believe?) and cuddled in bed instead. We were sort of supposed to take it slow and get to know each other more without all the sexuality, but no such luck that day. As happy and content as I was with just spending time together with her, I must admit it was awfully nice to be able to touch her again in that way.

On Friday we took a little walk down to the city, both for the walk itself, along with some window shopping. On the way back home we stopped by the store and bought some candy to enjoy while cuddling together in bed in front of the TV. I got the lovely pleasure of having Tina sleeping over yet another day. I had really missed the warmth and comfort of her next to me in bed. We watched The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh. Borrowed my mom’s laptop and tried installing WoW on it again, and lo and behold, it worked. Finally we got to play WoW together next to each other, which was cozy. Went to bed later on and put on some Donald Duck to fall asleep to.

On Saturday morning (A.K.A. afternoon) we did basically the same before Tina had to leave. These last few days helped me get some much needed joy back in my life, I really cherish all the time I get to spend with her. On Thursday when we first met, she gave me this incredible painting she had done for me, which left me quite speechless, it was so touching. Easily the best gift I’ve ever received (sorry mom and dad, all the G.I. Joes and Transformers toys you got me were all very nice, but…).

My dad was diagnosed with terminal cancer some time last year, and it was uncertain how long he’d have to live, it could have been weeks, months, whatever. He seemed pretty good for quite a few months, but this summer he started to slowly deteriorate and getting weaker and weaker. The last few weeks it got even more serious, and it became apparent that he wouldn’t have much time left now. Even so, it didn’t seem as imminent as it turned out to be. On Monday morning my parents went to the hospital because of some trouble, but I still didn’t expect to get a phone call from my mom only a few hours later that I should come down and that he was indeed on his way to die. By the time I got there he wasn’t conscious, and he was just lying there with an empty look in his eyes while you could see his chest rise up and down with his breath, almost like his body was just doing it automatically trying to keep on going for a bit longer. It became quite emotional being there and seeing him like that, knowing he could die at any moment. I’ve never cried as much as I did through-out that day. Spent quite a few hours at the hospital with the closest family members visiting as well. Eventually I went home for a bit to try and get some sleep as I had been up well over 24 hours by that time. I took a shower and went to sleep, only to be awakened an hour later without really getting any rest at all, with my uncle telling me that I should really come down again by now. Before I had gotten back he was already dead. I don’t really know what more to write about it all, everything still seems rather strange. Worst day in my life to put it short.

Been a strange few weeks, I’ve had the best day of my life, along with my worst. Guess it’s like they say, take the bad with the good. Only now it seems that the good part has a possibility of becoming shattered as well. My hopes for something more happening with Tina took a rather severe blow yesterday, and I’m not sure what will happen next. It’s hard to try and stay positive about everything right now, but I guess I have to.

Funnily enough, even though I’m a complete nerd and spend my days in front of my computer, I’ve been able to keep myself away from World of Warcraft all on my own, despite its attractiveness. Then I actually go out in the real world, be social and meet a girl, and then on Satuday I found myself installing WoW. I started an undead mage while Tina guided me through the most basic things in order to get me started. She started a new character as well, and an hour or two later she told me it’d be nice to sit next to each other and play together, and asked if it wasn’t too late to come here. Of course I said it was alright, so she hurried to get her things together in order to catch the last bus going here somewhere around midnight.

Finally here, we tried getting internet to work on her laptop, but to no avail. The network connection icon would just say “retrieving network address” or whatever it was, and stall for a minute before it failed to get an IP address. I’ve had the issue before with another computer, but I can’t remember what the fuck had to be done to fix it. We tried my mom’s laptop, and it worked instantly on that. Figured I’d try copying over WoW to that computer even though it’s not exactly a powerhouse, but when Tina tried to log in she got a message about how her account has been authenticated before with the Burning Crusade addon, so she couldn’t use the normal WoW. And of course it was impossible to download Burning Crusade anywhere without running into problems with logging in and such things. So eventually we just gave up, which really sucked. I had looked forward to playing with her, it would probably have been the most romantic thing I’ve done in my life, hah.

It was nice to have her spend the night here anyway, we watched Seinfeld, I played WoW on my own a bit, and then we hopped into bed and enjoyed each others company there. Woke up insanely late on Sunday, then like our times together before, we just relaxed together in bed, cuddled and whatnot. Eventually she had to leave, so I followed her down to the bus terminal and said good bye. This last week has been an incredibly happy one.